I was quite surprised today, when I was putting together this Mamatography post. I didn’t think I had anything to share, but had a glance through my phone pictures and found that while I’ve barely taken my camera out I have been snapping images of my girls. I’m pleased that it’s such a habit for me now. I’m so grateful that while everything else in my life is just ‘going on’ I’ll have these moments to look back on.
248/366 – Happy Half Birthday Aviya
On Thursday Aviya was 6 months old. Isn’t she a beauty? I felt a bit bad that on Ameli’s half birthday we had a birthday cake, but for Aviyas’s I only cooked a special dinner. I am on quite a restrictive food plan at the moment, and to be honest, with my mother’s news on Tuesday, I’m really in no mood to be baking cakes.
249/366 – Shopping
Perhaps it’s because we don’t use a pushchair, that being popped in a trolley with wheels is quite an adventure, but the girls find shopping this way quite fun. Well, Ameli does – Aviya probably finds it more curious!
We’ve borrowed a Ring Sling from our good friend Rhiannon as Aviya’s made it clear that she likes being carried on my hip. I’m loving the freedom to cook and so on, as I find it hard to chop and stir at the stove without being able to see when she’s on my front. She loves a back carry, but only if there’s something going on. Pottering about in the kitchen is not what she considers something ‘going on’ .
I thoroughly love this picture. Here’s why I call her Pixie girl. She’s so gorgeous.
251/366 – Babes in the Kitchen
I’ve always wanted a FunPod for Ameli, but it wasn’t really in our budget. We were given one recently and Ameli’s quite happy without it, and Aviya just loves being in it. She likes standing, rather than sitting or lying, and I’ve given up on the Bumbo, so this is her new home in the kitchen. She can stand in this for a good 20 minutes, just grinning away and looking at what’s going on around her. I love how involved she is with her world. It’s magic.
253/366 – Babes in the Woods
Another Little Acorns forest explorer mission for us, and here’s my little explorer, hugging a tree. I know I’ve said it before (repeatedly!) but heaven knows I love these girls. They’ve opened my eyes up to so much, and taken me so many places. What a gift.
Thank you for joining us for our week in pictures.
There’s a chill in the air, and where a month ago I hugged the trees to keep myself and my babies in the shade and away from the blazing sun, the kiss of sunshine on our skins now is beautiful, blissful and very welcome.
The seasons are changing, and as one wanes and another rises, I find myself tracing my children’s development by them. My baby is six months old now. She was born in March and spent almost the first three months of her life in rain. We had a brief summer and now, as the leaves begin to fall to the ground, I see infancy disappear in the wake of her leopard crawl across the floor.
We’re also faced with a tragic loss in our family right now. It seems so fitting. The dying of the summer, the dawning of the cold months, the hope of a distant reunion with spring…it matches what I feel inside. The end of something. The cold, bitter, hard mourning. The dawn of a distant hope, where memory comes back with a bitter sweet sting, and for a brief time, I know it will all be okay again. Because that’s what happens. For everyone else, life just goes on. It’s only for those left behind that the winter seems longer, colder, starker.
I feel the air stinging my face as I walk, holding my baby close, holding my daughter’s hand, and I realise the warm tears are leaving icy streaks down my cheeks.
“Are you okay, Mama?” my big girl asks.
“I’m okay, Baby. I’m just sad.” I squeeze her hand.
“Because your mommy is sick?”
Yes, Baby, because my mommy is sick.
“If I give you a kiss and a cuddle, will that make you better?”
Yes, Baby, for the moment, that will make everything better.
Most of this weeks seems to have been spent in outdoor pursuits. I’m so grateful that the weather has allowed us this break from the rain and overcast and miserable, as our evenings are rapidly descending towards winter again. It’s been remarkably good for my soul, and no matter where life takes us, I hope that these days spent in the woodlands and forests will be somehow engrained on the spirits of my daughters too.
230/366 – Alice Holt Forest
This is such a lovely forest area, if it was closer to our home, we’d go all the time. There’s a number of walks, and on one particular trail, there are ‘playgrounds’ all along it for the littlies. In this picture you can see parts of the big tower structure that children can climb, but there’s also a big owl, a giant’s chair and maze, a ‘spider web’ and more. It’s lovely.
I had some very good news this day about a new source of income for us, and the relief washed over me so much, I teared up. I was so happy. Many things have been in the ‘balance’ for us, and this news determined our immediate future. You can’t see it, but I’m awash with relief here.
231/366 – Inlaws lunch
One of those things that have been ‘in the balance’ for us, have been whether or not we’d be moving far, far away. In light of that possibility, my inlaws have been spending more time with us than usual. It’s such a blessing for us that they’ve been able to watch the girls grow and be part of it.
233/366 – Bug Watch
There’s a canal that runs not far from our house, and last autumn we spent a lot of time walking that canal. We discovered on one particularly long walk, the Basingstoke Canal Visitor Centre, and have really enjoyed going back there a few times since. This particular day they had a summer holiday programme, one of the elements of which was pond dipping – dipping a bowl into the pond, coming up with pond life and examining and identifying it. We discovered a really gorgeous ‘secret garden’ area with blackberries and just had a really peaceful public holiday morning.
234/366 – Sitting Up and Moving On
Oh, my heart. My baby girl is sitting up all on her own. She’s been so much ‘slower’ to these things than Ameli was, but I always felt that Ameli ‘robbed’ me of a babyhood – she started crawling at 4 months and never looked back! I’m so chuffed with Aviya though. What a gorgeous child. I’m so blessed.
Ameli, meanwhile is off to pick blackberries. She’s still not looking back.
235/366 – Friends and Parties
We’re incredibly fortunate to have an amazing friendship group, so when I can do something for someone I try to. One of our little ones had a birthday, and her mama is going through a hard time, so we had a small and last minute surprise party for them. She’s such a sweet child, it was a pleasure having them in our home.
Thanks for joining us for our week in pictures